Somehow, I have the felling that it is a necessity that I write something.

Well, how about you tell me something about yourself?

I have writers block. I want the words to come back to my finger tips but I am at a continuous mute of the brain. Every chance I do sit here to make an effort, I lose any inspiration and ideas that seems worthy of the time it takes to share.

Life has not been dull in any sense but in turn I am not the same person that wrote all those previous blogs from years past. Every night I go to bed and dream of a brighter tomorrow. Life is a mystery, heartache, and a sea of continuous rolling waves. Sometimes you have an oar to help direct your way and other times you are at its mercy. I keep having this continuous thought of some form of greatness. What kind of greatness is beyond me. Or is it just wishful thinking as I go though another day. I am constantly trying to surround myself with positive people and experiences but in turn I think that I may be bringing them down in some way.

I need to get away, anywhere. I have experienced greatness on different occasions. It is out there, waiting.

Today at work, my blog came to mind and with it a bunch of memories and happiness. I look back at when I was so happy to get on here and share whatever came to mind or my experiences. I can't believe that this will only be the fourth time this year that I have said anything here.

Life is always there, good and bad. As of lately I have continuously let the latter over rule to much of my daily attitude and events. I have told myself several times to pull out of this hole but still seem to be just going around in circles.


Hmmmm....

Nothing remains constant except for change.

That explains my summer in so many ways. Honestly my whole year to speak of. Some by chance, some by force and others by choice. Of course it has not all been pleasure but in turn, I do not wish to reverse or rewrite any of it.

I guess that at the end of the day, hopefully we can look back on it and be able to say that we learned something and to make tomorrow better. I am about to take a huge hurdle as I am moving to a part time position with with work and becoming a full time student. Sadly, it is occurring with me at this age but I say better late than never.

In turn there is some consolation as I will be going through the struggle alone and will not have to burden a family or wife. Everything has a way of working itself out in some fashion. Of course that is not always what we hope or wish for but I say how boring would life be if everything was handed to you and never a challenge?

I have no idea what is in store for me as I begin this new journey. I feel that because I am older and a lil wiser, I will be able to excel in school as my priorities in life are different than upon me graduating high school.

Here's to the best of a new journey!

Test test...

Wow, I can't believe it has been this long since my last post. Life sure can throw many curveballs at you. How you handle them is where the true adventure of life begins. Of course there are many instances that I would have much rather not come across but who am I to decide the outcome of everything. As the saying goes, beggars cannot be choosers! The more I mature in this life of mine, I am constantly reminded of the saying that goes, "Anything in life that is worthwhile is never going to be obtained easily."
That also brings back a childhood memory of a novelty license plate that my grandfather had on his truck as I was a child. It read, "Get it the same way I did, WORK FOR IT!"

Nothing in life will ever be free. yes, you may have not paid a price for it but some time before you possessing, someone paid for it. I am not sure where I am going with this but am rather letting the words flow as they come to mind. I have many a story to share with you since my last post but then again it is in the past...I hope to eventually get them here to share with you but I am ready to stay focused on my future and quit letting my past constantly be the culprit of my downfall. I have so big changes coming to reality in a very short period. Of course I am frightened of the potential further downfall that may accompany such decisions. However, as I am already 30 and have a load of "What If's" and Would Have's, Could Have's and Should Have's. I am taking that courage to make tomorrow a brighter day for me and for those who wish to enter my life.

Welcome to my show and I hope that you will return soon and that hopefully I can give something to you, as many have given to me.